性愛與閱讀

性愛與閱讀（節選自《寒冬夜行人》第七章） 　

　……我要對你們倆個說，現在你們躺在皺被子下，不分彼此。也許一會你們還將分開，故事不得不在陰性的“你”和陽性的“你”之間作出麻煩的調整;但現在，既然你們肌膚相親，試著將感覺最大程度的連在一起，傳遞接受震動和驚栗，滲透著充盈和空虛，既然你們的思想活動也高度協調，就可以把你們看作一個身體兩個腦袋的人，用明白的語言和你們對話。首先要為你們兩個形成的這個雙重實體，確定行動或者生存范圍。你們的結合將走向何方？你們變化和調整的主題是什麼？是緊張關注不喪失自身的任何東西，盡量延長反應的時間，為了加大快感而開發對方內部的欲望？還是最順從的放縱，對可撫摸和互相撫摸的巨大空間的探索，在無邊無際的觸覺之湖中溶解？在這兩種狀態中，你們只是存在于相互之間，但是，為了實現它們，你們各自的自我不能消失，反而要無保留去佔有所有意識中空白，在興趣的最高點使用它花光它。簡單說，你們正在做的是無比優美的，但語法上卻毫無變化。你們合二為一的時候，成了一個第二人稱的復數，但你們仍是兩個單數的“你”，比以前更分離更界限分明。

Fm 譯林出版社，【譯者】 呂同六 張潔
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我在對你們兩位講話，皺皺的床單下一個十分難以辨認的糾纏。也許，事情過後，你們會各自分道揚鑣，故事也得痛苦的變換齒輪，在陰性的『妳』和陽剛的『你』之間交替更換；但現在，由於你們的身體在嘗試著肌膚相親，尋求感官中最大量的黏結，在輸送並承受震動和波動，在穿透滿脹和空虛。由於在心靈活動方面，你們也幾乎完全看法一致，你們可以聆聽一篇清晰的說詞，把你們兩人當承擔一的雙頭人。首先，行動的範疇，或說是存在的範疇，必須為這個你們所形成的雙重個體而設定。這相互認同要導向哪裡？什麼是你們的變奏和變調中一再出現的中心主旋律？一種張力，全神貫注於不失去他本身的任何潛力，貫注於延長一種反應狀態，貫注於利用對方之慾望的累積，以繁衍擴充自己本身的電荷嗎？或者那是最順從的放縱，探測巨大的可划或相互可划的空間，自己的存在消融在一個表面是無限之觸感的湖？在那兩種情況下，你們除了在彼此的關係之中以外，當然是不存在的，但，要使那些情況成為可能，你們個別的自我與其說要抹除本身，不如說要毫無保留的佔據心靈空間的每個空隙，在自己身上以最高利息投資，或者自行消費，一毛錢也不剩下。簡言之，你們正在進行的是非常優美的，但結構上卻改變不了什麼。在你們最像是一個結合在一起的『你們』（voi）----------一個第二人稱複數---------的時刻，你們是兩個『你』（tu’s），比先前更分隔，更受侷限。

Fm 時報出版社《如果在冬夜，一個旅人》

... I'm speaking to you two, a fairly unrecognisable tangle under the rumpled sheet. Maybe afterward you will go your separate ways and the story will again have to shift gears painfully, to alternate between the feminine tu and the masculine; but now, since your bodies are trying to find, skin to skin, the adhesion most generous in sensations, to transmit and receive vibrations and waves, to compenetrate the fullnesses and the voids, since in mental activity you have also agreed on the maximum agreement, you can be addressed with an articulated speech that includes you both in a sole, two-headed person. First of all the field of action, or of existence, must be established for this double entity you form. Where is the reciprocal indentification leading? What is the central theme that recurs in your variations and modulations? A tension concentrated on not losing anything of its own potential, on prolonging a state of reactivity, on exploiting the accumulation of the other's desire in order to multiply one's own charge? Or is it the most submissive abandonment, the exploration of the immensity of strokable and reciprocally stroking spaces, the dissolving of one's being in a lake whose surface is infinitely tactile? In both situations you certainly do not exist except in relation to each other, but, to make those situations possible, your respective egos have not so much to erase themselves as to occupy, without reserve, all the void of the mental space, invest in itself at the maximum interest or spend itself to the last penny. In short, what you are doing is very beautiful but grammatically it doesn't change a thing. At the moment when you most appear to be a united voi, a second person plural, you are two tus, more separate and circumscribed than before.

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